the best advice i can give anyone is to abandon the idea of god and live your life.
it's preachy, i know, but dammit, there's logic in it, which is a helluva lot more than faith has got going for it.
all in all, it's a private matter (indeed one that is to be kept out of the public sector), but if you asked me (and you did, by reading this blog), just scrap the whole god-thing and stop hating yourself for insignificant things and start hating yourself about things that matter.
really, just consider it honestly; read books, search the philosophies of hume, dawkins, harris, and many others. why should your faith be so weak as to avoid serious criticism? if your beliefs are logically true, you have nothing to worry about. after all, it is truth, not comfort, we need be concerned with.
may i end with this quote from thoreau's walden:
"rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth."
